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  • Reading For Justice

    Book Review Series

    As the 2nd presidency of Donald Trump gets under way, I have felt horrified at his racist and prejudice actions.  I feel powerless to stop the upsetting news headlines I read daily about Trump’s policies on immigration, the environment, and democracy, to name only a few.  However, I have decided that knowledge is power.  I am therefore entering a period of reading for justice.  By that I mean, reading books that will educate me on the very subjects that Donald Trump is attacking.  Since 2020, I have been purposefully reading more books written by Black authors about the experiences of African Americans and the deep-rooted racism in our country.  I will continue this endeavor, while also adding other books to the mix, such as ones on women’s rights and homelessness.  I will be posting book reviews on The Ladybug of each book for justice that I read to stay accountable. I begin this series on The Ladybug with a book review that I did for The United Women of Faith of The Methodist Church that I wrote back in early 2023.  The chosen book for the review was The Hate U Give, By: Angie Thomas.  I have read this book twice, and plan to read it again, as it thoroughly rocked my world and provided me with a new perspective on Black lives in the USA.  I highly suggest that everybody read this book!!  I have included below an exact copy of the book review I presented in February 2023 to kick us off!  I encourage everyone to read for justice.  Remember, knowledge is power!!

    Gaelle McLoud

    United Methodist Women

    The Hate U Give

                Hello, Good Evening.  Before I begin my review of The Hate U Give, I believe that it is important to note that this novel was written by an African American woman, Angie Thomas, about issues concerning race relations, and I hope that I do her amazing book justice.  I believe that issues of race and ethnicity are important for all of God’s people, regardless of your skin color or background, because we are all sharing this planet and need to help each other thrive and live in peace.  However, with that said, I believe that the experience of Black Americans is important for white people to study and understand, because they have suffered throughout history as a minority that is trampled on by others in power.  I have learned a lot about myself and my own personal biases through reading this novel and others by Black authors.  Please keep an open mind and heart as you hear about the life of 16-year-old Starr Carter.

    The Hate U Give is a coming of age story about a young African American 16-year-old adolescent girl named Starr.  Starr has grown up in a rough area known as Garden Heights, but attends school in the suburbs at a wealthy mostly-white private school.  Starr feels conflicted about who she is at home compared to who she is at school, including time spent with her white boyfriend, because she feels tourn in two pieces by the different worlds.  This feeling is put into overdrive when she witnesses one of her best childhood friends get murdered by a white cop on the way home from a Garden Heights party one night.

    The young Black adolescent’s name is Khalil, and he drives Starr home from a Garden Heights party one evening.  The car is stopped by a middle-aged white cop who notices that the car’s taillight is out.  The cop is aggressive with Khalil and begins to search him.  Khalil turns around to ask Starr if she is alright, and the cop shoots Khalil in the back, 3 times, killing him instantly.  Starr is horrified and this incident becomes a defining moment in her life.  Khalil was un-armed, not carrying drugs, and was not threatening the cop in any way.  His killing was a tragedy.

    This sad incident is the beginning scene of the novel.  The remainder of the book is about the inner struggle that Starr goes through as she tries to understand what happened and how she should react.  To quote the novel, as told through Starr’s voice, “I’ve seen it happen over and over again: a Black person gets killed just for being Black, and all hell breaks loose…I always said that if I saw it happen to somebody, I would have the loudest voice, making sure the world knew what went down.  Now I am that person, and I’m too afraid to speak” (34-35).

    Thankfully for Starr, she has a very supportive family.  Her father is a former drug dealer who got out of the business when Starr was a baby, and her mother is a nurse.  She has two brothers as well, one younger, one older.  Starr is not comfortable at first telling her friends about the truth of the evening, that she was the witness of the murder, when the story is first aired on the TV news.  As the novel progresses, Starr finds her voice, and testifies for the DA in a trial of the officer who shot Khalil.  However, the officer ends up being let off with no consequences.  Starr finds consequences in her personal life once the story becomes public, and looses one of her high school friends over the conflict.  Starr’s boyfriend, Chris, remains supportive. Starr finally says the truth to those who doubt her: The truth that her friend Kahlil was a good person who didn’t deserve to die, the truth that his life mattered.  Black Lives Matter.

    Finally, I want to address the title of the book.  It is taken from an old Tupac song (he’s a rapper), and is discussed in the novel by Starr and her father Maverick.  To quote the book again: “The Hate U Give Little Infants F**** Everybody (Thug Life).  Khalil said it’s about what society feeds us as youth and how it comes back and bites them later…I think it’s about more than youth though.  I think it’s about us period.  Black people, minorities, poor people.  Everybody at the bottom of society” (168).   

    The question that I asked myself after reading this book was “what is the hate that I give?”  Are there groups of people that I am prejudiced against?  What are my true feelings about Black people and all minority groups?  These are certainly uncomfortable questions, but important ones.  Jesus calls us to love our neighbors as ourselves.  Are we displaying that love to the world?  Are we giving hate or love?  I suggest this book to everybody as a deep read and as a very thought provoking read.  It helped me to enter a whole new world and examine myself closely.

    God Bless.

  • Trump vs. King

    Thoughts on This Day in History

    Today is inauguration day, and Donald Trump has been sworn in as president of the United States for his second term.  To say that I have strong emotions on this occasion would be an understatement.  I voted for Harris to become president, and I still firmly believe that our country would be in much more capable hands had she been elected.  Why did I not vote for Trump?  Simply stated: I do not trust him.  He is a convicted criminal, a rapist, a consistent racist and homophobic speaker, not to mention a failed business man. In addition, I am convinced that Trump only acts in ways that benefit himself, not the American people.  When I voted for Clinton in the 2016 election, my belief was that our nation would be tarnished by a Trump presidency, and I currently believe that it will be again.  The argument used so frequently by my Trump supporting friends that grocery prices will drop once Trump takes office is not something that I can agree with.  I will be very surprised if prices end up miraculously dropping under the next Trump reign, in fact, I am expecting prices to rise further.  Life is going to become very chaotic.  I do not think that those who voted for Trump realize yet what they have gotten our country into.  Trump is a fascist.  The attacks on the Capitol on January 6th demonstrate that he does not support democracy.  Personally, I am terrified about how he will attempt to change our nation over the next 4 years.

                Today is, also, Martin Luther King, Jr. Day.  It seems a cruel joke that Trump gets sworn in on a holiday commemorating such an incredible person as Dr. King.  I do not have adequate words to express my admiration for Dr. King and his legacy.  My focus, therefore, has been on the importance of this holiday, and all that it means for peaceful resistance and civil rights.  I will peacefully resist the Trump presidency as best I can by writing my opinions on The Ladybug or by engaging in intelligent conversation with those willing to listen.  I must humbly follow Dr. King’s example as best I can. 

    In honor of this intent, I would like to share a piece of writing by: President Linda Thompson, DrPH, MPH, DNP (hc), RN, FAAN of Westfield State University, where I attend classes.  This excerpt is from a school email regarding Martin Luther King, Jr. Day:

                “Dear Campus Community:

    On Monday, January 20, Westfield State University will be closed to honor the legacy of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 

    Written on the Martin Luther King, Jr., memorial in Washington, D.C., are the following words from a speech he gave at the March for Integrated Schools in April 1959: “Make a career of humanity. Commit yourself to the noble struggle for equal rights. You will make a better person of yourself, a greater nation of your country, and a finer world to live in.” 

     These words are a timeless reminder that we all have a role to play in developing a compassionate, caring, and understanding society that respects, appreciates, and values all members. While we often spend time focusing on our cultural differences, on this day, and every day, we should take time to understand the similarities that make us human. Distancing ourselves from our own needs and acting to serve the needs of others represents the human spirit in its finest form.”

                I am honored to attend a university with these core values.  On this difficult day in our great nation’s history, when Trump is made president again, let us instead focus on what we can control: our own actions for justice and peace. 

                Keep Persevering, G.

  • Diagnosed: Who Am I?

    Personal Post: Mental Health

    Is it helpful or hurtful to be diagnosed with an illness?  The answer may seem obvious, that a diagnosis can help in treatment and, hopefully, recovery.  However, does this reasoning apply to mental illnesses as well as physical ones?  I feel that I have a unique perspective on this question, because I have been diagnosed with both.  Unfortunately, I struggle with several chronic medical conditions that require treatment.  In addition, I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which has also led to prescription drug treatment and hospital stays.  Revealing these facts about my life used to feel shameful and embarrassing.  People are usually understanding and sympathetic when I say I have, “health problems.”  However, as soon as I mention mental health, their reactions turn from friendly to uncomfortable.  A few people are brazen enough to ask what meds I take, some people tell me about a weird relative they have with a similar diagnosis, and then there are those who look at me knowingly, and whisper under their breath, that they struggle too.

                So, why is this topic as controversial as the others that I cover on The Ladybug, namely religion and politics?  Let’s dive in!  One observation that I have made throughout my journey is that mental health conditions scare people.  Behaviors seem threatening, and they can be dangerous.  Suicide is a leading cause of death in the USA.  Every life lost to suicide is a tragedy.  My own attempts were stopped by loving parents, and I was blessed to receive the treatment that I needed.  Others are less fortunate.  In addition, hospitals for the mentally ill are intimidating.  The experience of a locked ward is one that is unforgettable.  The staff are not always there for the right reasons.  Medications for mental illnesses have difficult side effects that can cause physical changes.  Personally, I struggle with a tremor that is obvious and makes everyone assume I am nervous.  These are some of the more obvious reasons why mental health is a difficult subject.

                But, what is the consequence of the label, “Mentally Ill.” Or, “Bipolar.”  How does it feel to be a professional patient?  Isn’t that the consequence of receiving the diagnosis and being told one is disabled?  I have not been able to maintain employment due to my mental illness, therefore living on disability payments and scratching by financially.  How do you think that makes me feel?  We all know that the Republicans in congress do not look favorably on people like me, living on handouts and charity.  So, how can I respect myself?  See myself favorably?  Feel my own self-worth?  The answer is:  I know that I am so much more than my diagnosis.  My diagnosis is not who I am.  My name is Gaelle, my name is not bipolar.  I have something of value to offer this world simply by being me.  That’s it, nothing more.  I have worth.             

    Honestly, the realization that I am more than my diagnosis was something that took time.  I tried to keep my mental illness a secret.  I feared that people would not see me the way I wanted to be seen if only they knew the truth.  Now, I understand that valuable friends love me for me.  The people who judge me or shade me with stigma are not worth my tears.  I encourage anyone who is feeling ashamed of a diagnosis to step back.  See the information given to you as power in your hands to better understand yourself and aid with treatment and recovery.  There is always hope for a better ending.  We have the control to make positive decisions about our futures.  My personal motto is: Never Give Up!!!  The healing I have experienced over the years is amazing, and it is the reason I was inspired to write such an intimate post.  Mental illness is real, yes, and treatable, and recovery is possible.  Do not let the label define you.  Every human life holds value.  Thank you for reading a little of my story.  If you are someone struggling with mental illness and/or suicidality, please ask for help.  I have included the link below for The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.  Blessings, G.    

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  • The Art of Connection

    The Art of Connection

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  • Beyond the Obstacle

    Beyond the Obstacle

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  • Growth Unlocked

    Growth Unlocked

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  • Collaboration Magic

    Collaboration Magic

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  • Teamwork Triumphs

    Teamwork Triumphs

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  • Adaptive Advantage

    Adaptive Advantage

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